A Love Song for the Sad Man in the White Coat

Reviewed for @BMBR

4.5 Stars

EEeEeeppp!!!

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It took DAYS for me to suck it up and read this. I was in this weird place of come on, it’s Roe Horvat and oh my, this is gonna hurt. I was weak and finally grabbed my blankey and prepared for the big dose of angst I knew was coming. I survived. Barely.

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In all seriousness, I have a thing for angst. I may get all whiney before and need fluff after but I just love when it hurts so good. Just like this one. A Love Song for the Sad Man in the White Coat was like having the wind knocked out of you and not catching your breath for a while. Whatevs, I’m all bring on the pain, angst, and the melancholy it was riddled with. Luckily, mingled in with all the heaviness is fire, passion, connection, and love.

Just a quick note before we dig in… we won’t be digging in too deeply. I liked the discovery in this book and having to really feel for Simon and Matěj as they navigate their pain so I won’t be giving too much away.

The book starts off in 2012 and goes back and forth to various times throughout a five year period that ends in 2017. Matěj is in his last semester of medical school in Prague. Right away, we get his snarky yet brilliant personality as he tries to get a reaction out of the unflappable Dr. Simon Mráz AKA The Cruel Doctor Frost. Matěj is a predator with sights locked on his prey and ready to pounce. Simon is a structured yet mercurial doctor that’s an expert at controlling the emotion he conveys to others. His self control and willpower is on point until he loses himself, his sanity and succumbs to the relentless hauntings of memories.

We get windows into Simon and Matěj’s dysfunctional lives and see the sweet relief for each man when they come together as secret lovers and friends. Matěj soothed Simon’s need for control, order and the habit of being locked in his head while Simon became Matěj’s safe haven. There was just so much want and need between them. They were on fire together and all the noise in their lives went away.

This books drags you through a myriad of emotions as a reader while *seeing* the utter passion, desolation, and then hope the characters go though. There’s so much pain and melancholy that it becomes a tangible thing. I loved the secondary characters and the energy they brought to the story. My one niggle with this angsty AF read was the ending. Yeah, they figured shit out and get their HFN. Maybe it’s the tiny cynic in me but I needed a lengthier resolution where explanations were provided. I believed their connection, love, passion, etc., but was the heartbreak necessary? I think so but I’m not sure. *shrug*

I love professor/student romances. I was enthralled with the story, the feels, the desperation and helplessness. I’m glad I sucked it up even though I’m diving into fluff land for a bit. Definitely recommended.

Trigger warning- Suicide and abuse take place off page with minor character but the details of the suicide are described. 

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Nachos & Hash

Reviewed for @BMBR

Format: Audio & Kindle edition

3 Stars

Goodness Gracious.

I started out listening to the audio on this book and had to call time of death at 40%. I literally listened to the first 10% and then had to stop, go back and read it because the voices were driving me crazy which ruined my focus. *smh* Along with the errors of repetition and lack of connection with the overall narration, I couldn’t go on. I didn’t feel it would be fair to judge the book based on the audio version so I bought the ebook and sallied forth to give it a fair shot. It was just okay. Maybe I should have gone back and reread the whole thing in print. *shrug* Ain’t nobody got time for that. So here it is, a 40% audio and 47% print review (40 + 47= 87% so color me confused when the book just ends as I turn the page at 87% thinking there has to be more).

Darwin is a 24 year old cancer researcher living in Denver on a grant. He’s a serial dater and ready to call it quits until he sets eyes on Cody, his waiter at Hamburger Mary’s.

Cody, like Darwin is from a small midwest town and came to Denver to be around people like him. He had never knowingly met a gay person until he left home. His father is an abusive alcoholic and his parents would never accept him as he is. Cody struggles with low confidence, self-worth, and is always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Cody has this mentality that good things don’t happen to him and if they do, they won’t last.

Darwin and Cody have a SUPER fast connection. Cody hasn’t been shown tenderness in his life or his hook-ups and doesn’t know how to expect anything different. Darwin is patient, understanding, and calls Cody on his self-hate talk. He shows Cody what it looks like to be treated with respect. They had a balance of patient and affirming Darwin for insecure and skeptical Cody.

This book was sweet. Really freaking sweet and that isn’t typically my cuppa. I’m just not a fan of insta-loveish relationships or cheesy professions of feelings when its been a couple of weeks(unless it’s a mates situation). Another thing that drove me bonkers was how insecure Cody is. Darwin is constantly having to restate his feelings alllllllll the way to the end. I know having a rough upbringing can wear a person down but Cody is an immature 21 year old. Their relationship angst was weaksauce and probably could have been skipped over since there was other drama/serious situations coming along.

Clearly it wasn’t a love match between me and this book. It started off on the wrong foot with the audio and never quite recovered. I’m not sure my opinion would have fully changed had I read it outright from the beginning, but I tried. Oh well, Cody and Darwin got their happily ever after and I’ve learned once again to LISTEN TO THE AUDIO SAMPLE BEFORE REQUESTING. *deep breath*

P.S. There needs to be a trigger warning for attempted suicide.

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Broken Sun

4 Stars

I think I came close to overdosing on antacids while reading this book. The angssssssst, Holy Hell. I’ll go ahead and warn you now that there is also angst by separation. I’m not a fan of separation periods in books that I read because if they didn’t stay in relational mourning long enough you get the whole…

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Not a fun situation. But, the gritty, harsh reality in this book prevented it from blowing up and becoming an issue.

So, now that I’m coming down off the Tums high, we can talk about Luc Sinclair and James Morgan. Both men are in the Bastard Legion Motorcycle Club but haven’t had many interactions. The club is ruthless, heavy handed, with higher ups all the way to new recruits that operate with the M.O. of violence first; except Luc and Morgan. This environment doesn’t provide a safe landing for a gay and bisexual man to be open with their identities. In fact, it could be a death sentence and forces them to hide who they are. Both men grew up in the life but Luc has never been cut out for the violent world of a motorcycle club.

Luc and Morgan haven’t really been in close proximity until they meet up in a pub. The heat-filled exchange they have provided some valuable information about their preferences. It’s right after this exchange that trouble follows. Luc gets cornered and Morgan steps in to manage the situation. Morgan is a higher ranking member and diffuses the fight and saves Luc’s life. From here on, Morgan and Luc slowly and secretly explore their relationship. It’s full of heat, angst, fear, pain, and ultimately love. Trouble follows Morgan and Luc without provocation. Morgan is forced to make decisions that will save Luc but have the potential to wreck Morgan’s sanity and break their hearts.

Now that the nitty gritty is out of the way, I’ll be honest and say that I didn’t get their connection at first. Hell, I didn’t even understand what was so heated and epic about the exchange in the pub. The pub scene was such a profound moment for both men that set up the course of the plot and yet, it went over my head. Luckily they grew on me. Morgan and Luc’s connection made much more sense to me the second half. They worked well together and I appreciated how far they had come when they FINALLY got their HEA.

The ending. Hmmm… IMO it was anti-climactic. I get why, I understand the events leading up it.But we I mean they went through hell to get there and I wanted a little more lethal-swoony-Motorcycle Club badass- tattooed knight in shining armor action. *shrug*

This is the second in a series but can definitely be read as a standalone. I never felt like I was missing pieces, events or characters from a story that already took place. It’s a decent length and read lonnnng. But, I enjoyed reading this angsty AF morsel. Recommended.

P.S. I wouldn’t complain if Kade got a story. *wink* He has his own brand of yummy badassery that I could definitely get on board with.

P.P.S. There needs to be a trigger warning for cutting.

Copy provided  by author for honest review.

A Purple Winter

4.5 Stars

Before we get started, I want to warn you that this is a sequel to the book Split. It isn’t intended to be a standalone… even though that’s what I did. *shrug* I read this without reading the first one. Although my enjoyment of the story wasn’t hindered by skipping the first, I would have had more clarity on different characters if I had read the first. Click here to check out Cupcake’s review of the first book.

Ok, so I seriously enjoyed this. I was drawn in right away and it kept me going until the end. It was angsty and deep with a complicated love between MCs.

Derek and Nick were neighbors growing up. Nick being older, became the secret object of Derek’s fantasies. He’s infatuated with Nick and was devastated when Nick moved away. In the first book they reunite and eventually marry. However, not all is wedded bliss in this one. Derek is insecure and hasn’t spoken to Nick about his insecurities. Nick is driven to reach for the next best thing which unfortunately is at the cost of Derek’s security within their relationship and acceptance of himself. Derek gets into an accident and wastes away the days in a coma with Nick by his side. Well, he isn’t fully wasting away because his subconscious takes a trip back like the Ghost of Christmas Past to a time where he was Nick’s neighbor again and there wasn’t an age difference. The connection is instant and complicated between Nick and Derek. David is another character that holds a large role in this book. He and Nick are really close friends and provide outlets for each other. Derek was extremely jealous when it came to Nick’s relationship with David. It became crystal clear during his visit to the past and Derek gets a chance to understand the relationship and even “bonds” with David. All the relationships between Nick, Derek and David were dysfunctional. They were also full of love, fear, jealousy and acceptance

My heart broke and was put back together throughout even though I knew that Derek was dreaming. It was as if he found the peace he needed; to release the jealousy and insecurities where David was concerned. After a life time of feeling left behind, Nick was able to appreciate David and the place he holds in his heart all the more.

The secondary characters were fully realized as well and added a lot to the story. I wish David was getting a story of his own. He was extremely complex and had a lot to tell. *sad face*

I’m a fan of Mel Bossa’s writing. It’s a testament to her writing that I didn’t care about the missing pieces (from not reading the first book). I was drawn in all the same and still felt like I went on the journey with them as they finally came together in a way that was meant to be.

“I wouldn’t ask for much. Only everything he could give me without losing himself.”

Copy provided for honest review.

Bleeding Like Me Released Nov 21st

 

 

Blurb:

Being gay in their neighborhood is perilous. Being gay in a street gang is unheard of. Being gay and in love with a man in a rival gang is a death wish. Through drug addiction, brutality, and seemingly endless peril, they remain; finding stability within each other that shouldn’t exist in their volatile world.
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Excerpt:

He didn’t paint people; the curves of their bodies and angles of their faces never interested him as much as cityscapes. The circumstances of his life had compelled him to create new worlds that he could get lost in rather than reflect the features of the people he ran from. He constructed buildings from their foundations, making them taller and stronger than he was. He adorned the edifices with countless windows, always left open or cracked so hope could pour in and fears could seep out. Tree lined streets reminded him how to breathe, pumping oxygen through the atmosphere, off the canvas, and into his lungs.

He didn’t paint people until the day he no longer desired the anonymity of his cities. The streets didn’t feel like his escape anymore, not like him. Cerulean skies gave way to pale blue eyes and bus routes to pink pouts. Evan didn’t paint people until he painted Jackson.

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